Wednesday, 16 January 2013

Balance: Yoga-to-find-it

They say that sometimes in life the universe sends you exactly what you need.   So it was with me as I started last week wondering what my next 43 Project challenge should be.  I was at a bit of a loss as I watched the warm temperatures melt away all of the snow and evaporate my plans for investigating more winter sports.  Although I was discouraged, in this singular instance, it would appear that global warming was actually my friend.  As it happened, without even considering a new challenge, I was having trouble keeping up with the rigorous schedule of core activities I had set for myself.

My dip in performance had become painfully clear over the previous week.  I had run (slowly), I had skated (wobbly), I had gone to spinning (panting like a dog), I had worked out (stiff and sore) and I had horseback rode (legs numb). I was experiencing a general feeling of fatigue and what was more bothersome was that last Tuesday I had started to seize up. 

“Have you been stretching after all these things you are doing?” Matt, my trainer, asked me in the way he does when I am about to get in trouble.

“No,” I replied, trying not to make eye contact.  “I don’t have time and most of the time I am too tired when I am done.”

“Look at me Mary. It’s very simple,” he said with emphasis. “Stretch or stop doing what you are doing. You are doing too much. You aren’t strong enough to keep this pace.  We can’t work out today in the shape you are in.   We’ll stretch together and then you go home and rest.” 

I had been told.                                                                                                                                  

Even after stretching, I hobbled home with a charlie horse in the back of my left quad. For the rest of the week, other than horseback riding, I focused on icing my aches and pains and stretching.


I have never been one that takes direct orders well, but in this instance, as I squirmed in pain while I applied the acupressure ball to my triceps, quads and calves and winced and swore while I used the foam roller on my glutes and hamstrings, I could see that Matt might have a point.    

Saturday morning, as I iced and stretched while watching TV, I decided that much as it pained me to admit it, I was out of balance and I need to get a new strategy.  What’s more, if I was going to carry on with the 43 Project, I was going to have to let something drop.  It seems I hadn't quite been true to the spirit of the project which was to try new things and move on.  While I had been letting some things go, I had been collecting other things and adding them into my regular routine.   I needed to let something drop, at least temporarily, and include some more time for stretching and resting. 

After a great deal of soul searching, I decided that all I really want to, do as core activities, is to ride horses and my bike.  Since I need to train to get the muscle to support those things I know I need to keep working with Matt.  I could, however, do without the constant trips to the chiropractor with aches and pains related to running.   Although it felt a bit like giving up, I decided that, at least for the moment, I was going to have to  do something kind for my body and stretch it out by trading running for yoga.    

The next day, I grabbed my mat and headed for the gym. This was not my first yoga session.  But I was my first in about a year.   As I we started cross-legged at the beginning of class, I remembered what it was like two years earlier when I returned to the gym after a 10 year hiatus from exercise and chose yoga as my first activity.  I remember my first downward dog.  I couldn't hold it for more than three seconds.  Now, I could move through the sun salutation without stopping.   As we went through the poses, I noticed, that somewhat ironically, with all the core work I had been doing, my balance was better. For the first time, I think I began to realize how far I had really come in such a short period.

It was a good session.   I mean really, anything that ends with five minutes of lying on the floor thinking about nothing is a pretty good deal….but it in so many ways it was just what the doctor ordered.   As I walked back to my place I felt that strange yoga paradox of energized and relaxed.  The morning rain had stopped and there was a fog a rising off the sidewalks and the street. The temperature was starting to drop and I could see that we were headed back into winter. I started again to think about new challenges and as I rounded the corner at the top of the hill, I smiled to myself as heard my heart say....Game on.


Never quit,

Mary

Wednesday, 9 January 2013

Blue Suede Skates

“I’d like to buy a pair of figure skates.” 
The sales girl looks me up and down with a mixture of contempt and disgust.  Her eyes land on my feet.  She just looks at them like she’s never seen anything quite like them before in her life.  I look down; my winter horseback riding boots are covered in dust from the ring and have salt splatters all over them.  At her request I take them off and get measured.  
“We don’t have your size in women’s skates.”   She says looking, relieved that I’ll be leaving soon.
“I know that,” I snap…I am irritated.  “I have always worn men’s figure skates.  Those come in my size.”  She looks at me like I am crazy and goes away to consult with someone  in the back. 
I know I shouldn't be rude, but it’s Friday night and I have gone far out of my way to seek out this specialty store.   I just want to get the kind of skates I learned with…you know “girls’ skates,” the ones with the picks on the front.  After a 25 year hiatus I am going to skate again and I don't need any added variables like a new style of blades.
The sales girl returns.  “We will have to do a special order.  It takes a week and they will cost $210.00.” 

I exhale.  The 43 Project is expensive. 
“I’ll think about it and let you know.”
Dejected I start walking back to the subway.  On the way, I encounter a used sporting goods store.
“O.K. maybe it really is  time I considered learning to skate on hockey skates. I can a deal on them here.”  I say to myself and walk in.
Once inside I scan the huge wall of used skates. It’s about 30 feet long with racks that go 10 feet high.  I am overwhelmed.  All the sales people are busy and I don’t know where to start. So I decide to walk the length of the wall.  It runs from hockey to figure skating.  Right at the transition point between the two disciplines, a pair of figure skates grabs my attention.  How could they not…they are blue suede and there’s a bright purple sticker that says size 12.
They are the craziest things I’ve ever seen.  I take them down.  I put them on.  They are a little too big, but I think with an insole and extra socks they just might do.  I look at the price tag…$34.99.  Sold. 
I text Marla and we make arrangement to go to skating on Sunday.  
Sunday rolls around and we head over to the local skating rink.  We decide to go early to avoid all the hot shot kids.  I used to be one those.  As I lace up the blue suede skates I am wondering if I have lost my skating mojo. 
I stand up on the rubber mat and look at the bad ice between the rubber and the rink.  “How am I going to get over that?” I ask myself.   For the first time in my skating history, I feel fear.   It seems like a very long 25 years from this moment to my last in skates.  I am also thinking about how I don’t bounce like I used to. 
With a big breath and long stride I step over the bad ice and onto the rink.  I am wobbly.  I move slowly forward doing a sort of monster walk.  I suddenly remember to bend my knees and the gliding motion starts coming back to me.  I manage to make it to the far boards.   I am trembling.  Still on my feet, Marla offers me words of encouragement.   We continue to skate.   



About 25 laps of the rink later I am still upright and elated.  I’ve been saying I am going to get 
back to skating for at least 10 years now.  I can’t believe I have finally done it.  It wasn't pretty and  there will be no backwards skating or cross cuts for a long time yet...but there will still be some good winter fun. 
I get home and wipe down the blades of the blue suede skates.   I wonder to myself where I should store them.  It's a fleeting thought.  Doesn't seem much point in thinking to hard about it.  I set them beside my riding boots and running shoes.  It feels like a waste of effort to put away something I going to be using next weekend.

Never quit

Mary

Coming up:  More winter fun